I'm not really surprised, considering everything I've been going through as of late. It seems like all the shit that was going down would convince me to blog even more, but it just made me crawl into a little cubby hole and hide, like a tiny mouse.
It really all had to do with my job at Heller. Seriously. I felt like this molecule that was getting smaller and smaller and smaller, til I was about to disappear into myself and never come back out again. It almost became dangerous to my physical health (why else was I sick all the time?).
Well, I got a new job a couple of weeks ago, bartending and serving at a place called Bahama Billy's in Carmel. I know it's not part of my career path, but I'm making more money working 5 hour shifts that I was working 40+ hours as the Wine Club Coordinator at Heller. The place is a lot of fun and (most of) the people there are really, really nice. The managers like me and treat me well, which is a great bonus. I finally feel like I'm being treated with respect, rather than like a child.
In other news, my parents moved out of my childhood home to get a smaller place in San Mateo. I helped them move yesterday. It was rough. I cried a bit. When I was a kid we were always in transit - the house in Salinas was the closest I had to a home where I felt secure and in one place for longer than a year. It was hard to see it go.
I also found out my younger sister has secretly been planning on moving to Reno to live with her new boyfriend, who I also didn't know about, without telling me or my older sister. I guess she feels we don't trust her - the hardest part is, she creates the situations where we lose trust because she's so afraid that we don't trust her. Sometimes I wish she would act like an adult and be accountable for the situations she chooses to put herself in. I'm not disappointed in what she's doing, but it is disappointing that she chooses to live in two separate realities - the ones she tells us, and the one she tells the rest of the world.
If she only realized that growing up means being honest, this whole situation would've gone a lot smoother.
I'm also getting my hair done tonight. Will post pics.
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